Distance...

Time can bring distance between two people. ALthough two people are so close to each other, it felt like both of us is seperate from a mile. For weeks, I have walk down this road alone by myself, waiting for you to catch up with me. For times you tell me,"I'm sorry, I'm really busy." I said, " Its okay, I undertstand. I will get use to it." Indeed, I'm starting to get use to it- getting use to not having you around most of the time, getting use to seeing u once a week, getting use to hearing you voice for a few minute. Prehaps thats where it brings the distance between us, prehaps thats why I feel distance from you.

Lately, you asked, " You okay? You sound different." I replied,"Yup, I'm really okay." Just that it's funny hearing your voice thats all. The voice is so close to you, yet its distance. I prefer talking to the phone (sms) rather than you thats all. In the virtual world, I can imagine how sweet your voice is when u say those words, I can visualise the animated version of you. I think that is the reason who so many millions and millions of people hock themselves in chatrooms. They can pretend who they are, and pretend the person at the end of the line, who you want them to be. Thats the sad part of technology, it make communication faster & convient, yet at the same time it distance the relation between human beings.

There is a saying: Treasure the little time you have & be contented. I think is a whole load of crap. You just can't simlpy walk out of my life most of the time & come back once a week or sometime a few hours. And ask me to be contented with it right? Flower also need regular watering for it to grow healthy. Leaving it alone and tend to it once awhile, simply won't be of any help, slowly it will wither and die. So do I. What you expect me to react? contented? Happy? or what? that finally after a long week wait, today is my day to be with you.

I think I'm just been too selfish, not understanding after writing so much. I should be more understanding, shouldn't I? There is so much time ahead of us, why dwell in such a misery. Prehaps this is just temporary, but what if it is permenant...? Well, walk one step and think of the other the next time I want to walk. Or prehaps I should stop & wait for you to catch up with the distance that we have lost...